Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Two years ago

Two years ago, we spontaneously decided to return to Canada to visit our family. We I don't usually ever do spontaneous, but this time we did because there was an unexpected property tax overpayment cheque that paid for our flights and our green cards processed faster than we had expected. As such, we were able to join Daddy on a trip that he was required to take. I'm so glad we did because this was the last time we saw my mom, well, conscious. Somewhat, mostly herself. This visit still had hope.
 
Enjoying the grandkids


 
On our last day before we headed back over the border, we got to take mom out on a day pass. We went to one of my favourite places in the whole world: Garry Point Park in Steveston, BC. The significance of the location of our last outing has only occurred to me recently and I really believe it is just another little detail that God arranged to show me that he cares.
 
Garry Point Park is where I went many times throughout my mom's illness to find peace. Peanut-lover and I would talk out my fears while we ate a picnic supper and breathed in the sea air. It is where Peanut-lover and I went to pray and make our decision regarding moving to Baltimore. It is where I found myself many times when I couldn't cope with the stresses of the move. And the fact that it is where we spent our last conscious playtime with mom is just one more detail in a string of details that remind me of how intricately and carefully and detailedly God loves me.
 
The folder that contains these pictures is hard for me to visit, because losing mom less than 2 months after this still hurts in ways that I didn't know I could hurt, but these are some precious pictures and I want to share them with you.


 




 
Miss you mama.

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Mean Mommy Trick #347

Typical Shopping Trip:

Me - Kids, we need to Costco.
Kids - AWWWWW, I hate going to Costco! Can't you go when daddy gets home? Whine. Complain. Are we there yet? When are we going to be done? How much more do you have to get? Why does this take so long? He's looking at me! She keeps walking where I want to walk. My legs are tired. When are we going to be home?

Today's Shopping Trip:

Me - Kids, we are almost out of toilet paper. 
Kids - *disinterest*
Me - But it's ok, because we have lots of trees in the backyard - we can just use leaves. 
Kids - WHAT?! *shocked faces*
Me - The only thing is that we'll have to go out and get them each time before we use the bathroom.
JJ - Even if it's an emergency??!
Me - Yes, because if the leaves dry out, they'll just crumble.
KK - *tears* 
Me - Or.... *dramatic pause*
Kids - What?! What?!
Me - There's only one other thing we could do... We could go to Costco.
Kids - *jumping up and down* YES! Let's go to Costco!! PLEASE! Can we go to Costco instead?!
Me - yeah, I guess that's probably better ;)
#winwin